not sad

Today is gorgeous.
               beautiful.
               stunning, and chilly, and spring, and windy.

Sometimes beautiful days make my heart sort of ache. Like that CS Lewis quote, “If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” 

― C.S. Lewis

Today I had an exam. I think I did well. It was actually kind of enjoyable, surprising. 

Then I studied and read for school.

Then we prayed, together, and then I listened to Arielle play the piano. It was so beautiful. 

Then English Club, which was really fun. We played catch phrase, the words were really hard, we laughed.

And then I walked back to my room, and the loneliness hit. School is really stressing me out today, and hormones, and it's all just not enjoyable. But even if I don't feel good, I know God is still in control. I know He won't abandon me. I know He delights in me. 

Lots of things swirling in this heart of mine. Lots of things.

I want to be real on the internet and in real life, dear blog readers.