it's not about me

you know, we are really messed up. our priorities are really messed up. my priorities are really messed up. 

four months ago yesterday i had to majorly reevaluate my whole identity. still, every single day i have to remind myself. every single day i have to stop myself from comparing. it is still a good struggle. but really, self? four months? 

really? 

four months to realize, every day, how i want my world to revolve around me. 

i don't want it to. but so often i do.

you know?