like my life

mmm. I like my life.

I am so glad I never dated in high school. I was looking at my neighbor's pictures on facebook. She looks so young!

I am so glad I never gave in to the pressure to look good, cute, wear all the right clothes, put all the right bumps in my hair, etc.

mmm I like this me.

so hard when you surrender it and it doesn't go away.

Jumbled

for the first time in my life, I have what I want. truly.

and then other things get thrown in, and they mean nothing to me. I feel as if I should want them, feel as if I should care, but I really don't.

and then I'm stuck, between being distracted, and loving what I have, and wondering what is good and what is better, and what is not as good.

I always thought this would be the arrival, but there is still so long to go.

every part of me wants only Jesus. My heart, my mind, my soul, my imagination, every part of me wants only Jesus. And society is taunting me. It's not temptation, I don't WANT it! But the values and thoughts of the world are trying so hard to convince me otherwise.

Stop distracting me! I have what I want!

reasons, I want my reasons to be faith. to be loyalty.

I need a big change. I'm so bored and restless.

like a tattoo.

... that's the only exciting thing I can think of that I could actually do.

How effective is removing distraction when you're trying to get rid of it long term?

(does that make ANY sense?)

something M told me

My sister told me that her friend (who is 40 and single) told her (confusing, I know) that G might never take away the desire to get married, so we have to depend on Him.

My first response is that it's not fair at all! People who get married don't have to deal with something like that! But then, they have other things to deal with. It's probably not fair, but it'll be a grand adventure with my G either way.

whoooo boy. Ok G, I'm ready for this adventure. (Or, I think I am. Probably I'm not. will You prepare me? :) )

there are days.

There are days when you realize how blessed you are.

Today my friend said several things that made me realize that she appreciates our friendship, that made me realize she trusts me with pieces of her heart.

Some days you just remember how loved you are.

Some days you remember that people want to be with you, people want to share life with you. lovely.