Ask

but i don't want to ask for anything fun today.
...well, i want to just really enjoy nature...

it rain stormed and then the sun came out just in time to set and it was stunning. there were two rainbows, though neither were very bright--- or maybe it was one really big rainbow. but either way, the pictures didn't really show up. but regardless i still saw them and really enjoyed. 

garden

Have you ever read this book?

If you haven't, you need to go to your library and read it. It's a great book! You'll love it.

I'm starting the garden this year and every time I think about it I think about "How My Library Grew." I'm not going to make a story about it, but I do think I'll post pictures. :)

So, this is the beginning:

poem, so far untitled

girl crickets

don't sing.

girl birds

are brown.

girl lions

don't have regal hair.

we wish we could be like crickets,

content

to just be.

without the red feathers.

we wish it

wasn't

expected

of us

to be

those bright colors,

performing tricks,

singing songs.

girl ducks

are plain

and their

value

is still quite

apparent.

we wish

our value

was

recognized,

seen.

some

of us

have

forgotten

it

ourselves.

and have

forgotten

that

plain

is often

more beautiful

than sharp,

red,

feathers.

quiet

Today I had a headache. Actually it came yesterday evening while dancing, and lasted through today. (Still going.) So I went to Spanish and seriously considered just going back to my room and trying to sleep. (Though that wouldn't actually have worked because of the t.v.) I went to poetry anyway, and as I walked out of Eppler, I noticed it was sunny. LOVELY. And then I got to poetry and my professor (is she still called that if she's a grad student?) said she was feeling tired and thought we needed a calm day. So we did a writer's colony (I don't know if that's the right term..) and we all took off in opposite directions and just wrote. Then we got back together and talked about it a little. I went to where the clock tower is, and there are benches surrounding it. I wrote some, but that's not the point. I turned on my music and then decided to just have quiet and turned it off. It was prescribed quiet. It was still class time, so I could just relax, write whatever I wanted, and listen to the nature. The birds were happy, the tree was creeking, the ice was dripping off the bush next to me. It was just nice. And the cool, calm winter air took my mind away from my headache. It was so nice to just be quiet and write about that. I'm not one of those people who never stops, no no, I take my breaks, but I didn't have to feel guilty during this time. I wasn't taking a break feeling like I should be doing something else. I was taking a break during time set aside for it. (Yes, I was writing, but I always write. :) )

In other non-news, I'm really tired of eating alone in my room. I don't particularly want to eat alone not in my room though. Maybe I should start a club for people who don't eat with their friends. It also feels like it should be Friday.

but have a lovely evening!

Power

I was walking back from swing dancing tonight, being all giggly and happy, and all of a sudden I saw this HUGE shooting star looking thing falling through the sky. It even kinda had a tail. It was big enough and slow enough that I wondered if it was man made. But it wasn't. I know deep down that it was something awesome and astronomical, and showing J's love. showing the awesomeness of G. You don't have to agree, but I have no ifs ands or doubts about it. It was incredible, and gorgeous, and HUGE. Coolest thing I've ever seen in my life. I'll remember it for the rest of my life and beyond :)

Dirt

Today my mama and I planted impatiens. (I always thought they were impatients.. huh.) I love dirt. I love worms. I love pill bugs. I love feeling the cool dirt on my fingers, and how it washes down the drain brown later. I love marveling at the amazingness of how pill bugs are somehow always clean and how the dirt is like a whole other world for the worms. I tried to transplant mint plants from elsewhere in the yard. I think I killed them.. :( but luckily we have more. :) We shall see. But it was lovely.

Oh, and I thought of you. Of what you'd plant, or what you'd think of me playing with those worms. And then later, at dinner, I slipped up (only in my brain- thank goodness) and thought, "well at home..." thinking of somewhere else. shocking. I don't miss the place at all. I love THIS place. But I do miss you, and everyone else.

have a good tuesday night! watch glee!