I have great joy. It's bubbling, and it's peaceful. A soft, peaceful bubbling.
I am struggling with the hair thing. I do not regret cutting it, and I'm so excited! But I do struggle with wishing it was long. 21 months. more or less. I can't stop thinking about when it will be long enough to braid, long enough to touch my back in a ponytail... I knew it would be hard. I am glad for it.
I feel so much more like me. I know it's not about the feelings, but it feels so good. I am forced to be bold, it's vulnerability at its clearest. I'm already uncomfortable, so I feel as though I might as well talk to people. Already there are wonderful things coming out of this.
and technically, my hair has already started growing. :)
PHOEBS! I LOVE YOUR HAIR! AH!
ReplyDeleteYou're so cute. :)
I know how you feel, though, mine wasn't as long as your when I cut it freshman year, but it was kind of like instant regret. But it does grow! I love how you're making everything so positive, though, even uncomfortable things.
So glad you're in my life. :)
xx