today

Today was good. Church was good, then skype with a sister, then I got a few layers in my hair (no use for a picture, you wouldn't be able to tell) and then Mama and I made no bake cookies. yummy. And then I got to talk to a friend from the Beeg. :) I finished the book I was reading, and started another one.

Cookies!

I have now worked 9 1/2 hours at that little pizza place. The first time was absolutely awful. (see previous post.) The second time it was a LOT better. It was just the manager, and another guy, and me. MUCH more chill. It was terrifying of course, and got a bit busy around lunch and at the end of my shift. I can see myself getting used to working in the back, but probably not in the front. I don't know. I think that's someone talking. Not welcome in my head. I know big J gave me this job. I'm tired of feeling panicky about it. I don't want this job to make me miserable. The adrenaline kicks in all right when I'm there, but when I'm home I have nightmares about it, I worry about it, I just panic the whole time. I would so much rather trust big J...

Also, G is rumbling. Can you feel the mountains tremble? ;) We're waking up. The Ch is waking up in America. (I believe.)

And it all makes sense. Waking up, so of course there's gonna be a lonely hit, a you're-not-good-enough for this job hit, a you-can't-change hit. of course.

Have a good Monday y'all!