Response

My sister tells me you find yourself feeling guilty about how your life is turning out different than ours. Brother, one of the things I love most about my friends is how everyone is doing such different things. For me, moving overseas is my only option. I admire people who can stay in the American culture, as of now, I can’t. I actually worry that God will make me stay. I suppose I am willing, but that is more terrifying to me than moving overseas.

I had my life planned out, then it changed. I planned it out again, then it changed again. Then I found myself in a refugee camp. Literally and figuratively, I found myself in a refugee camp. Working with refugees lets my soul breathe in a way it had never experienced before. So I’m chasing that. God might take that away from me, and I give him permission (not that he needs my approval) to do that. But for now, I’m pursuing overseas refugee ministry because it is what I love, and because for me it makes sense. It lines up.

You, I don’t know what your passion is. I thought mine was rescuing girls from sex trafficking, but then I discovered my passion is about making people know their value, and showing them Jesus, and, as strange as it is going to sound, the hearts of men. But I don’t know what your passion is. And you might not either. The point is, right now it doesn’t matter. Don’t worry about what you are going to do. Don’t worry that it’s different from me. It will be different from me, because God has a different plan for you.

I don’t know what God has planned for you, but brother, I am so excited for it. But don’t rush. Don’t worry. It was actually not until my senior year of college that I even got an inkling of what I might actually be able to do with this soul breathing I had just discovered the summer before. And now I’m graduated and unemployed. So don’t worry. Don’t compare. If you’re willing, and walking, He’lll use you just the way He wants to. And it will be different from how He’ll use me. And it will be great.