Five Minute Friday. We write for five minutes, no editing, just let yourself be. What comes to mind at this word: Expectation?
Expectation, I thought to myself, whatever do I write about that?
I think about how we are supposed to come to G with expectation. I think about how I don't do that.
I think about how I can't remember the last time I honestly, truly, with-my-heart expected something from G. I mean, it's tricky business, for sure.
For sure.
I expect...
that fear is part of who I am
that I am this
or this
or this,
and never this,
not good enough for this...
I'd never say it to your face, or mine, or His.
I don't do polished.
Raw, sharp, crusty.
I do not expect things from G, and I don't go to Him. I expect things for other people, but not me.
Don't edit, that's the "rule." Just write what comes out. This came out.
Por favor, don't try to polish this up.
I appreciate your honesty in this post. I know that I have been hurt when I have had expectations and so (I hadn't really thought about it until you mentioned it) I guess I don't have expectations either often from others, even from God, because, in the past, they have not been fulfilled to my liking. Hmmmm. Something for me to think and pray about. Thanks.
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