Pathetic- but not really

I've been through this so many times before.

Grades 7 through 12 my sisters did not live in my house. For much of this time one or both of them were in different countries. There was always a goodbye. Always the ache of missing one of them. My extended family all lives in different states. There were times we saw each other, short clips of time, and then we'd separate again, and the ache of missing would return. It lessens, but always remains. But still, I've done it before. I would leave for camp, friends would leave for camp, friends moved away, my sisterfriend graduated a year before me and left for school, friends were always gone on trips- I've done it a thousand times before. I've been left- I've left- a thousand times before and the ache has welled up inside of me and stayed for quite awhile. I missed my girls like nobody's business when we first left for college. I still miss them, but it's easier now. I eventually made other friends. Every new person I meet I must eventually leave- or they must leave me- at some point, and I must miss them.

I've been through it a thousand times. And each time it hurts more.

So I'm home from college...

and I miss them like there's no tomorrow.

and I feel quite pathetic. But I know it isn't really pathetic to miss, because that just means I connected. really well.

But I still wonder if the ache will stop. Or dissipate. I don't want to be an annoyance or a bother to my dears trying to keep in touch.. After all, we haven't even been apart a week. Is the missing this intense every time? Or am I just used to it with everyone else but these new friends?

So that's that I suppose. A full four days away from my kids and already I'm going crazy. Thanks for reading, or not reading, either way... it was good to let it out. :)