The Stars Birthed Cerulean

And the Moonlight whispered secrets to the Clouds
And the Wind laughed with the Trees
And the Flowers gossiped with the Grass
And the Roots of the Plants
tucked their toes into the Warm Earth and smiled.

I need a yes, or a no.

Baby

There's this magical thing called Love. Actually, it's not always magical. More often it is made of hardy stuff, like trees and mountains. Or a day full of steady spring rain. Or the way the sun shines on the earth day after long day, curiously and patiently helping the grass to grow. Less magical, and more hard work, perseverance, sweat and tears. Hardy stuff. And like steady rain, sometimes makes you just sit down put your head in your hands, and think long and hard, and maybe cry, if that's your fancy.

And there's hope too, and great happiness and joy and wonder and amazement, and we all know that, don't we?

Today's hardy love is brought to you by the baby leaving.

The baby's leaving by the end of this month, and oh, this house is going to shake.

I have learned

I have learned what beauty is:

to take responsibility for each piece,

to receive this gift I did not create.

I have learned to appreciate

long hair without forcing it

to hold my security.

This, I hold in palms stretched out towards Heaven.

Come and see what the Lord has done!

I have learned to love my 

translucent skin, the thinness 

of wrist bones, these popping hips,

exquisite functions, systems that breathe.

I have learned that beauty is

in the being,

not the doing.

That beauty is to be given, not as something to watch, or ogle,

but as something which offers freedom, safety, and joy.

Beauty is not to be held.

Beauty is not for pleasing people,

but for praising the Creator.

Consider the lilies.

Consider the sacrifice.

Consider the sunrise.

Consider your own eyes.

I have learned to take responsibility

for each piece of this gift,

not as something to tame,

fix, style, purify, or cling to,

but as something to celebrate.

A Breath,

a place to hold peace,

a vehicle for this dancing spirit.

A gift,

given in joy.

I have learned to receive.

That’s beauty.
Thank You.

For Learning

I am putting this here because it seems a good spot. :)

Today, there was much learning,
strong feeling.

I learned:

cho-nen / han-gook-uh-reul / bay-ooh-goh-it-seo-yo.
I am learning Korean

cho-nen / hawk-sing / im-ni-da
I am a student

man-na-seo / ban-gahp / soup-ni-da
Nice to meet you

among other, more personal things.

I completed (almost) day four of no sugar,
walked, twice,

went to ballet class- it was exquisitely painful, which I am glad for, because movement is progress.

And now, I am about to meet via skype with my phonetics instructor, which was a bad idea because I am exhausted and what sounds perfect right now is curling up under the covers and falling asleep to the sound of gentle rain.

Do they know?

I made a list of all my students from 2012, and I put it in the middle of my Bible along with a bookmark a friend gave me from a country many of these friends are from (the bookmark, not the friend). I pray for them, and having the names helps me remember what these friends look like. I heard via facebook today that one of them has died. I never knew this man personally, outside of class. I have often wondered if any other of the people on my list have died, or disappeared. Where are they? What are they doing? Is their life good? Do they have everything they need? Do they know they are loved? Do they know Love? Do they have hope? Do they know the source of hope?  

A Thought, While I Stop to Tie My Shoelaces...

“I will stay in my bed and write poems about how I will wait for you.” –Janette…ikz

I like this quote a lot. I like it because I, too, am staying in my bed writing poems. But I’m done waiting. I’m off and running into adventure and life and joy and Jesus. Full sprint ahead. I’m going. Love, you are welcome to run with me, but I’m not waiting. You can come, but I’m going.

If you’re up ahead on the trail and want to take a rest in the shade of a Willow and wait for me, I’ll meet you when I get there. But if you want to keep running, that’s admirable too. As long as you stay on the trail, I’ll catch up.

So you can run alongside, if you like. When I glance sideways I’ll be happy to see you there, but I’m not sticking around. I’m off to chase the King, the Light, the Lion who is not tame but is good.

And if we both reach home not having found each other, that’s okay too, because finding you is not my goal in this glorious adventure we call life. 

See you sooner or later, love.