color five minute friday

five minutes. color. 

http://thegypsymama.com/2011/12/five-minute-friday-color/

You are my lavender. 

the colors of the rain, i want those. 

tonight i felt them again. choosing this. the feel of cotton in my mouth, and then colors. knowing.

the colors of cashews, roasted with honey.

the colors of this night with the almost full or fully full moon

purple post its scattered over my desk

red

yellow

blue. so much blue. 

reading about beauty, colors are beautiful, don't you think?

finding a brown bug on grey carpet. his colors blend. 

i want the colors of listening. i want the colors of joy. 

the colors of cold, i want those.

You are my lavender.

You are my gold.

You are my scarlet.

You are my lime.

so much blue. 

simple, the simple things. the simple shades. 

i know nothing of color, but i know some things of You. 

Sounds

today i did not listen to music.
not legalistically, my neighbors had music on, and i watched some television, so i heard some. but i did not listen to it as i walked to and from class, or doing homework, or writing.

it is wonderful to have a break from something good sometimes. i heard some music later because i was listening to this half sermon/songish thing, and it was even more beautiful than usual. i just enjoyed the sound of rain, and then the SNOW!

i recommend it. :)

la!

Do you ache for this too? (don't analyze. just feel.)

Rain

When We Float

Sunday

I think it is time for a new post. My heart has been so full lately that I haven't had any room for extra words. I still feel like I don't have much to actually say. It's like you'd have to sit here with me to even get a glimpse at understanding.

The wind is whistling so much, it sounds like an animal, a cat.

I think it is a feeling held only by aunts, or people who are basically aunts. It's a crazy marveling at life, and it's so overwhelming, but wonderful at the same time. I can't even put it into words. It's crazy love, and yet bewilderment. It's wonderful. so alert, so aware, alive. But inexplainable.

Everyone said it would be a "bad" winter, but it's currently 50 out. just creeeeeping in. I like winter though. I want cold weather.

That which God said to the rose and caused it to laugh in full blown beauty, He said to my heart and made it a hundred times more beautiful. -Rumi

a love letter for lucy

(this is the story of how much you are loved.)

My dearest Lucy,

A great aspiration of mine is to be like Lucy Pevensie, because she is both childlike and wise, a friend of the trees, and valiant. But most of all, she is completely in love with Aslan. Jesus. And you, my beautiful niece, have her name. I am praying that you will be like her too. I am praying that your heart always knows how deeply you are loved. I am praying that the knowledge of who you are roots deep into your heart and grows strong before you are tested. I am praying that you grow up knowing how beautiful you are, and remembering that you are because because you are loved, and everyone you meet is loved just as much. I am praying that you experience the unshakeable love of Jesus Christ from the day you are born, so that you will not be afraid to dance in church, stop in the middle of a busy sidewalk to gaze at the sky, or to laugh when it snows. 

I have many hopes for you, but most of all I want you to know you are loved. I want you to know that your value comes from who you are, not what you do or who you know. I want you to know that no matter what you do, you will be loved the same.

Lucy, I already adore you, and you're not even breathing air yet. You are already lovely, because you are loved. You are already strong, because your Jesus is strong. You are already brave, because fear does not dictate you. You are already protected, because He took you out of the other place, and brought you to Korea.

Lucy Revolution, this world better look out! Your life story is already deliciously exciting. The world needs more girls like you, girls who know they are Loved.

So I pray that you do know you are loved by your family, and people who love your family, and most of all, the Creator of the universe. You got this, girl!

Love you,

Aunt P

tuesday

I am excited because it is cold and grey.
I am excited because soon, God willing, I will have a niece to see over skype, and soon, meet in person.
I am excited because I finished my NaNoWriMo.
I am excited because I am loved by the Creator of the universe!

(John 10:10)

boring things about my day

Today I got up at 8 to say goodbye, and then I went back to bed at 10 and didn't get up until 1. I was mostly awake. I wanted to get up at 10:30. and then 11... but I must admit, it felt really good, just laying completely under blankets, staring at the blue sky out my window. 


I currently have "I've got a dream" from Tangled stuck in my head.


I got to see some lovelies today :) and am completely and utterly behind in my novel. 


Praying for my niece to be born soonidy soon soonums. 


not super enthused about going back to the beeg on sunday. It's kind of a good thing, I'm so enjoying my time at home. (and sleeping in this bed)


My papa is now (or is soon arriving) in Germany!


Good day/Good night!
love!